i have an idea brewing.
part of me needs to start it. i know this.
it deals with beauty and longing and this process of playing in the pain. it touches on my fear of sharing my story and helps me dip my toes in the water before jumping heart first into the unknown.
but it also takes a lot of risk.
a few days ago i read sarah mae’s how to market and sell your eBook and immediately my mind began to connect pieces together. i’ve been toying around with lengthening some posts around here – creating a series out of them and fleshing out some of the stories. when i read her suggestions and noticed the pull inside – that thought of oh. i could do this.…two things happened: i got really, really excited and really, really scared.
which pretty much tells me i have to do this.
i’m going to write something for the girls who feel damaged and used and forgotten. i’m going to write a manifesto, in the middle of my brokenness, for those who feel like they’ll never measure up against standards set for them. and i’m doing it scared.
i’ve made every excuse in the book: i’m not ready. i’m not healed enough. i’m still processing my own journey. and it wasn’t until just this morning – just three seconds ago – i realized i cannot wait. this book does not require perfection but messiness, and i’m in no better place.
so i begin.
I’m glad your ready! I truly believe scared is a place to start. You know, nothing to fear but fear itself…
oh, yes! wanting more.
“touches on my fear of sharing my story and helps me dip my toes in the water before jumping heart first into the unknown.”
I know this feeling too well. Praying that Father keeps giving you courage to write what is on your heart. Would you pray the same thing for me? My heart is heavy and scared. It’s so hard and I too question.. am I healed enough?
oh friend. praying for you right now – just as i know you’re praying for me.
dude… i just finished sarah mae’s book too, and am feeling the same things. maybe different topics, but i can totally relate to the pull that you’re feeling right now to do something.
let me know how i can help. i love the topic, and would be happy to provide feedback or whatever…
#fistbump
right back atcha friend. can’t wait to see what YOU come up with – have no doubt it’ll be golden.
Awesome and exciting! I’m actually hoping to start out on a similar venture in about a month or so, so it will be fun to track your progress if/when you share it with us!
That a’girl, E!
Doing it scared means doing it in His grace and not your strength! I’ll be praying you through it! Keep me posted!
can i just say, i love that you call me “e” – i haven’t been called that since college
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Yay!
How wonderful. Let it pour on out.
yes, friend! i am excited for you, too… your words will heal, because he is in them. and he is so beautiful, in them.
This sounds AMAZING. I love that tingly feeling at the outset of project where the tingles are part excitement and part petrifying fear. Love it.
Remember what Steven Pressfield says in The War of Art: “The counterfeit is wildly self-confident. The real one is scared to death.” and also “So if you’re paralyzed with fear, it’s a good sign. It shows you what you have to do.”
You have heard the call of this message, Elora. Time to give it its flesh.
I’m also learning that being scared means you should do it. Looking forward to reading it.
I love that excited, scary feeling you get when you are about to do something big, meaningful, and something you were created to do. . .good for you to feel messy and do it any way. Inspiring.
I am planning to publish my review of Sarah Mae’s eBook on Wednesday. May I post your link on my blog as an additional review?
yes! for sure.