inch by inch

You know, sometimes all you need is twenty seconds of insane courage. Just literally twenty seconds of just embarrassing bravery. And I promise you, something great will come of it - we bought a zoo for the past few months, i've worked toward {abiding} - sitting and waiting and learning what it means to let Him love me.

something i've learned since january :: it's taking more and more tenacity to sit in the wait.

i can't help but think this means i'm doing something right. 

guys, there are moments i want to run. there are moments where my gag reflex seems potent. this is the process of birthing oneself into full adulthood, a friend told me the other day. in a situation that left me dizzy, she looked me in the eyes and reminded me of the why :: in doing so you will be whole. 

image found on pinterest via alli worthington

so right now, i feel a little like my rope's been cut. i feel like i'm flying and i'm not quite sure if this is a good thing - probably because i'm not quite sure what the landing will look like, i've never been very graceful.

but i'm at peace. one thing i know for sure in this season of learning to abide: He never asks me to understand the steps twenty or thirty yards ahead. the One who holds my heart and the One who understands my fear is the One who whispers these dreams in the quiet.

and all He's ever asked me to do is trust the next inch.

Posted on June 1, 2012 and filed under abide.