belief in this place.

My twitter bio knew before I did. Or maybe when I wrote it, there was a moment I chanced upon that tiny little place inside where the deep dreams rest. Regardless, I wrote it almost as an after thought and I echoed it on my Facebook profile - this thing of learning how to tell my story and helping you find yours.

This belief that your story can change the world.

Because I do believe it - I’ve seen it.

When I saw the phrases plastered there next to my name, I had to laugh. Who says platform and branding is planned? For me, it was spoken for in the very beginning. Story.

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In case you missed my announcement earlier last week, I started story-coaching sessions. For November and December, these hour-long sessions are pay-what-you-can. When I hit publish, I didn’t know what I was doing, really. I just knew there was this instinct telling me to go for it - that now was the time, not later. By last weekend, I already had four sessions on the books.

A few days ago, I had my first session. All day long I really wasn’t sure if I’d be able to go through with it. This wasn’t the doubt that comes with some dreams, like the doubts I feel with writing. This was just the common cold rearing his big fat ugly head and well…skype isn’t that forgiving with sneezes and coughs. But, I did it and the whole hour I listened so intently to this other person who trusted me with her words - her story - her dreams that I completely forgot about being sick. I did. It wasn’t until I got off the computer and walked into the kitchen that I could feel everything sink back into place. The achiness, the chills, the need for sleep.

I couldn’t help but smile though, because in the midst of this experiment I’ve stumbled on something that really makes sense for me and guys? It’s exciting.

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There are doubts. Just yesterday, staring at our bank account, the old fear creeped back in - the one who sat on my heart for so long just a few weeks ago - the one who whispered lies so strong I believed them. What am I doing?  Where is the safety-net? How will this work? Who is going to sign up for this anyway? And then I got an email requesting more information. And then I got another one. And then a friend on twitter expressed interest. In the space of a few hours, I went from five to eight possible sessions and it was all my heart needed to breathe a little easier.

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So here I am this morning, typing in disjointed thoughts because most of my words for the day are being spilled in an imperfect novel for NaNoWriMo. But, underneath it all - the words, the sessions, the fear that this won’t all work out - underneath it is a belief in this place and space God’s brought me. It’s been years in the making: from stories4stories with my sister, to dreaming of writing mentorships with inner city high school students, to actually mentoring students, to feeling the shift and pause of a dream in order for it to percolate and express itself in a completely different form. I can’t wait to see where it goes,

Are you interested in story-coaching? Fill out the form on my story-unfolding page and I will get back with you ASAP.

Posted on November 15, 2012 and filed under story.