Posts tagged #waiting

sing in faith.

sometimes, moments in life give us a glimpse of heaven. joy bursts through every fiber of our earthly being and it's not enough to stumble over words in order to explain how He's provided or come through in a moment of need. sometimes, situations around us just overwhelm. sickness, family issues, debt, insecurities, loss of jobs...sometimes we ache for reprieve but know there's no end in sight.

and i'm pretty sure if you're breathing, you've experienced one or both of these moments.

lately, my life seems to hold more of the latter. and so this past Sunday, when matt carter was talking about how the word hallelujah serves this incredible purpose of giving us a piece of language to describe Christ's goodness, tears began to fall.

because sometimes, in those moments of difficulty, i question His goodness.

i forget about the wait. i forget about this biblical discipline - woven into the fabric of who we are as His children.

i forget that our lives, comfortable and brimming with extraordinary excess, were meant to be spent on behalf of others.

i forget that the beauty of wait, where we see His goodness - His presence - in the midst of these difficulties is found in the singing.

it's easy to sing when things are going well. it's easy to throw your hands up and praise when you just got a raise or that guy you like smiles at you. it's real easy to smile when your bills are paid on time or when you receive good news from the doctor.

but what about when you lose a job, or when infertility steals your hope for children? what about when lies threaten to tear apart the family you've worked so hard to protect? what about when sickness weaves itself silently into loved ones?

do you sing then?

oh yes. you sing. you sing in faith.

you sing in expectation of Rescue. the night doesn't last forever - and His silence may be proof of something deeper - something more significant than any of us can imagine.

you sing in obedience. and this is the hardest of them all. this past week, Russ & i stepped out in faith knowing disappointment was certain. we could verbally commit to what He's asked us to do, but that's about it. we knew saying yes was half the battle, but our hearts wanted more. regardless, we followed through with first steps - despite our lack of necessary funds. sure enough, our expectations were met with brick walls - impossible to get through but perfect for God to shine. at the last moment, when we were certain the last chord of this song was finished, He came through in ways we never anticipated. obedience. it's the hardest willingness of them all but it's most often the way He proves Himself worthy of our full attention and praise.

and you know what? because of that shattered brick wall, i'm able to see with more clarity the reason for our wait. and you will too.

because, on the other side of His provision, you understand the no's. the disappointments suddenly take on this beautiful hue of protection and you're left with no words except hallelujah.

Posted on December 7, 2010 .

Waiting

I'm sitting here, staring at my dog sleeping on our huge chair he's claimed as his own, and I can't help but wonder - Man I wish I could blink my eyes and it be next year - I'll be skinnier. Healthier. Russ will have a job and we won't be biting our nails about loan forbearance...

And then I laugh, because really - that's sucking all the joy out of life. Yeah, the first week of 2010 was less than thrilling. I posted about my goals for 2010 a couple days ago, and as far as this past week is concerned, well - let's just be honest. It was a failure. We're stressing about finances. We're dealing with some hurt. We're licking our wounds and looking to Christ for some answers. But to check out? To just turn our back on what He could do this year? So not worth it.

I'm doing one of those reading plans through YouVersion. Given the circumstances, I decided the one that takes you through Psalms and Provers all year long would be perfect. And so far, it's been just what I need.

You took over and set everything right; when I needed you, you were there, taking charge. Psalm 9:4

Don't you wish for this sometimes? A reminder that when we are the most tired and worn out - He's there. He knows our battles. He wants to fight them for us. We just have to ask. We just have to need Him. After all - we're nothing without Him.

God's a safe-house for the battered, a sanctuary during bad times. Psalm 9:9

If there is any doubt in you - any wonder if God could possibly guard your heart and protect you and minister healing to your broken heart - please hear me: He can. He will. Just ask.

I've been home alone a lot this past week. Normally, I grab something to eat, take a shower, crawl into bed with a book or hunker down for some writing. Peaceful evenings. I crave them after my hectic days with teenagers and administrators. But Tuesday was different. I needed time with my Savior. So, I pulled out my Bible and opened up to Psalm 119. And I swear for the next thirty minutes it felt like I was sitting on His lap, listening to His heart for me. It was beautiful. He is my refuge - my safe house. I run to Him because He's the only one who won't disappoint. The only one who makes me satisfied. He is my lover and best friend and father and master of my heart. He is my everything.

I smile. I look around my small living room at everything I have and know that it is so much compared to some. I have a roof over my head. And although I'm considering putting on some gloves because of the frigid temperatures seeping in through the vents, I think of my friends who don't have a place and say a prayer they find some place warm to sleep tonight. My life may not always go my way. My life is not my own. It may not be the start of the year I anticipated, but one of my friends told me the other night, "everything that happens to you screams of His love. You are here - in this season - because He loves you. You are hurting and confused - because He loves you. Rest in His promise and love and wait for Him."

Waiting....

Posted on January 10, 2010 .