when i hit "publish" on the post inviting people into our journey of adoption, i honestly had no idea how people would respond. it's not that i feel important. i was almost dreading everyone knowing - erin said it best in her post announcing their adoption: the what ifs tend to cloud your view sometimes.
i've learned a few things over the past week, though. the most important: the same God who performed miracles and intervened on His people's behalf in the Bible is the same God who we serve today. the same God who saw words and hurts cut into our heart when we were younger is the same God who's waiting on us to call on Him for healing today. He never changes. He is for us.
another thing is that community is vital. i cannot fathom what this process would be like without the buoyancy of others lifting russ & i up at some of our weakest moments. there have been so many moments this week where i've been moved to tears by others' willingness to share our story - to let others know who we are and what we're doing. like i said before - i'm nothing special. the part of me who wants nothing do to with the spotlight cringes whenever someone else looks at me. but when russ & i signed up for this journey - when we took that deep breath and stepped off the cliff - one thing was certain: we needed others.
it wasn't an option anymore. we can't do this alone - it's absolutely impossible. so when friends look at me and say, "welcome to the Ethiopian family", this does something inexplicable to my heart craving for authenticity and encouragement. when i receive a text or an e-mail from someone who wants to remind me of this jubilee i'm living - it boosts me in ways i never thought possible.
in ephesians there's a prayer. it asks that God would strengthen you with power through His Spirit in your inner being - so Christ can dwell in your heart through faith. it continues with the desire that you would be rooted and established in love - and with the power of His Spirit and together with all the Lord's holy people, you would begin to understand how wide and how long and how high and how deep is the love of Christ - and that this love surpasses any knowledge we could ever attain.
this is true community.
for those of you who have shared our story, prayed for us, laughed with us, cried with us and joined with us either financially or physically - thank you. together, we are slowly starting to grasp just how much Christ's love extends beyond our expectations.
russ & i couldn't do it without you.